Neglect

It's been another half year since I last posted! It's amazing how many, how often, and for how long things can fall by the wayside.

I've been living in San Francisco for 7 months now. As usual, the initial sparkle, excitement, and difficulty of moving to a new city has worn off or been resolved. Things have fallen into a routine. Exhausted and bored by workdays, I spend my days off worrying how I should best spend my free time and end up doing nothing (and feeling guilty about it). So futile!

I have a habit of lamenting over "the things I did wrong" which, again, is futile, wasted energy and words. So here comes things I want to do more of or restart or refocus on or something instead of the "what I didn't do sooner, more often, better" lament lament lament!

1) keep a more consistent running routine.
Running is an amazing way to start the day. I feel accomplished when I start with a run and the day always seems to turn out right on mornings when I exercise. Maybe it's the adrenalin high. After all, I don't drink coffee so a morning with adrenaline is a great alternative to a caffeine-induced quick start.

2) draw more often, with less self-consciousness.
It's all practice and practice can only lead to improvement, so why not? Time to be less worried about perfect.

3) craft a little every day.
Grandiflora is still something I want to make more real. Growing a pile of stock/inventory/units (repetitive work like making yo-yos and rolling beads) to make other things out of is ok when I feel too pressured to invent something new and falter. It will probably clear my head.

4) take care of a living thing.
What I really want is a dog or cat. What I will probably get is a plant. I haven't decided what yet but I think having a living thing to take care of will be an encouraging day to day activity.

It's time to do the laundry, wash the dishes, and maybe take a walk.
Here's to a good rest of the day.